Counting Blessings

Today I woke up (not such an uncommon occurrence). Today the sun was shining. Today the skies were blue. Today I got dressed, went outside, and began watering.

Today I went back in the house, assessed the situation of cleaning and said out loud (no one else was home) “God – I can’t do this today.”

I was referring to the condition of the house. You see, it’s a mess. The floors need mopping, the carpet needs vacuumming, the dishes needed washing, the laundry needs laundering, the bathrooms need scouring, and if I were really, really ambitious, in my list there would include window cleaning as well. However, I didn’t feel ambitious. You see, if I were to do all of that cleaning (which I would do and have done), that would mean I’d have to pick up one-thousand, eight-hundred, and forty-seven items in order to do the floors, the carpets, the dishes, and so on.

One-thousand, eight-hundred and forty-seven miscellaneous items including, but not limited to – unpaired socks, gasoline receipts, paper clips, loose change, paint infested shirts and shorts, sleeping bags, coats, half-filled glasses of some kind of soda, juice, or water, pens, pencils, books in each and every room and so on. You get the picture… Blessing or curse?

I left my son home alone while I took a jaunt down to Arizona to visit my doctor. Upon my return home, I walked in the back door, put my purse on the washing machine, saw my son who was standing with his head out the back door (the cell phone reception is much better that way), heard him say to the unidentified person on the other end, ‘Hang on a sec’, while he mouthed to me, ‘You didn’t call and tell me when you’d be home or I would have cleaned up’. I bet you’re getting a much clearer picture now…

So, after having just ended a very long, eight-hour drive, I went straight to the restroom, without getting mad. You see – I prepared for this moment, expecting the very worst and to be quite honest and giving my son some credit – it really could have been worse. There could have been 1,947 pieces of what-not strewn across the floor.

I came out of the bathroom and you know what I did? That’s right. I got in the car and went to the park to take pictures of birds.

That was four days ago. I don’t know what happened to him as a child. Somewhere he missed Housecleaning 101 when I taught it to my children in the summer of ’89. I will have to credit him with the fact that he was only two years old and his brother had a four year jump on him and his sister almost two years. Still, I repeated that class several times each week but I never realized he was failing. He missed the lecture ‘Cleanliness Is Next To Godliness’, as he was at his best friend’s birthday party where he was duking it out at a re-creation of the Peter Pan (Hook?) food fight. Some very bad lessons learned there but one of his fondest memories. He also missed the lecture on ‘Do Unto Others as You Would Have Others Do Unto You’, with an emphasis on cleaning up after yourself. I am not sure where he was that day. Perhaps at the overnighter where he lost his camera, wallet, whatever. Something is always missing.

Back to the present…

It’s been four days. I know my son is busy working. He works hard. He gets up at 6:30 to be at a job by 7:30 and usually doesn’t get home until close to eight o’clock at night. He is tired, hungry and most days I don’t recognize him as he’s wearing more paint than what he probably used to cover the house he painted that day for a client. However, doesn’t he realize I have more important things to do than pick up over a thousand things that belong to him, just so I can get to the bottom and clean? After all, there are birds waiting for me to photograph.

Not very long ago I would have stood there and sobbed over this matter. Today I just said, “God – I can’t do this today.” You know what God had to say to me?

You can’t count my blessings today?

Ouch.

I can’t count blessings if my mind is on the things of this world, like being frustrated over things. I can’t count blessings if I am bitter and angry, for my mind is on me, myself, and then there’s I. ‘I’ always says, I shouldn’t have to do this. ‘I’ has a pride problem. But, you know what? I is right in one respect. I shouldn’t have to do this because my grown-up son is a big boy and big boys clean up after themselves and so you know what ‘I’ did instsead? That’s right. I grabbed my camera, grabbed a bottle of water, and went out into the backyard to take pictures of birds. You know why? Not because I was running from the mess. I’ve been there – done that. I went outside to take pictures because I was looking for blessings. And I found what I was looking for.

I am learning that when we look for blessings precious ‘joy’ gifts from the Father, we will find them. Not because we’re running from something, but we because we are running towards God and some days, we just run faster.

Blessing #457:

Blessing #458:

Blessing #459:

Blessing #460:

Blessing #461:

Blessing #462:

Blessing #462, my dear,lovable, crazy son who skipped out on housecleaning to spend time and ‘ride horses’ with his favorite 3-year old:

May you find a wonderful blessing from God today.
~Sherri

The Blessing

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As my husband backed out of the driveway, en route to the airport, the guy on the radio made a comment that fall was here. Did he have that wrong. Fall is gone where I live and winter has arrived. No more shorts and tank tops, flip flops or capri pants. It’s sweatshirts, long johns, cuddleduds and wool socks from here on out.

I’ve already determined to stay by the gas fire this winter. Helps the aches and pains not ache so much.

So, my flight…

I realized again today that I have Parkinson’s Disease. Some days you get by with feeling like you’re sort of ‘normal’. Of course we all know that with PD comes a new normal.
Realizing again that I have PD means having to confront the monster – this intruder – face to face, whether you want to or not. Every once in a while you have to be reminded that you are different than other people your age. You look younger than you feel and you feel older than you are. Today was my reality check with the monster.

I boarded the plane. So far so good. Got everything checked in. Got on the wrong plane. Got buckled. Found out. Got off. Got back on. Took an empty seat next to my flight mate who happened to have done the same thing. Embarrassment is always better with two.

We arrived in Seattle a little earlier than my original flight, which I would come to recognize as a blessing.

I didn’t realize how much I have slowed down. After exiting the plane, by the time I got to ground level, I had a following. It was much like when you’re driving up a hill in an old clunker. You’re going as fast as it will take you but not fast enough for the umpteen cars lined up behind you, their drivers politely keeping their hands off their horns all the while hoping for a turn out so you’ll over and let them zoom by in their faster cars.

Well, today I was an old clunker. At least I felt like it. The line in front of me got further and further away as the line behind me got closer and closer behind until finally, I found a turn out and let them all go by.

There is a verse that says God works all things together for good. I got on the wrong plane by accident but it was one of those ‘things’ that God was working for my good. I needed that extra half hour after landing to get to the next gate, because while my spirit said I had just as much energy as those who had backed up behind me and were ready to race by, my monster mocked me and reminded me that sometimes – I’m an old clunker.

I boarded the next flight. This time the correct one. And we arrived on time. I got off the plane and went through the same thing. Backed up line – pulled over at the nearest turn out. I wanted to cry. I wanted to get a ride. I wanted someone to carry me. I wanted to be well.

But I’m not ‘well’ and though the monster threatened to laugh in my face and remind me that I can’t do what I used to, I didn’t cry. I didn’t get a ride or have anyone offer to carry me. Instead, I kept walking, realizing I’ve arrived at a ‘new’ normal, yet again.

I am slower and my steps are shorter. Some call it the PD shuffle. But, this new dance—this shuffle—it’s part of life—my life. My new normal. I can view it as a monster or, I can see it as a blessing in disguise. After all, the slower you go, the more you see. And there’s so much to see when you’re not in a hurry to zoom by the old clunkers that seem to hold you up from going through life at a faster pace.

Next time this old clunker is running slow, I’ll pull over again and be thankful for smaller steps and the opportunity to see what others may miss. Especially if I’m on the wrong flight.